Bio: Poem about people's struggles with mental ill health, the effects, and coming to terms with it all.
Aching Heart,
Felt very deeply,
Lying heavy,
Constantly.
It's just there
Where you think it ought to be,
Inside my chest,
Centre of me.
It's been a while,
Since I felt easy,
Normality gone,
Total irregularity.
Takes me away,
Joy & bliss,
Constant Sadness,
There is a twist.
Resentful am I,
To live this way,
Full of hurt and anger,
Total dismay.
The truth is clear,
For all to see,
Abandoned myself,
I really hate me.
Reason behind this,
There's a story to tell,
Grown up with neglect,
Emotional hell.
Played the victim,
In my life you see,
Can't see past this point,
Having great difficulty.
Struggling to keep,
Pain away,
Inside my spirit,
Can't keep this crainziness at bay.
Trying to form,
A new identity,
An exhausting challenge,
Massively.
Grief, Sadness,
Ran so very deep,
Total madness,
My insides weep.
Push to feel free,
What I desire of me,
Feel my own suicidal terrorist,
Self tyranny
Working to remove,
This burden of me,
Expressing what I want,
Truthfully.
Open my chest,
Surgically,
Take a better look,
Emotionally.
Pushing too hard,
To set myself free,
Absolutely knackered,
Lethargy.
Trauma is stuck,
Accept that part of me,
Time ticks away,
Too much wasted, regretfully.